I feel dazed and
confused.

I'll get some art
done when I get
my biology done.

Hope it doesn't
take or feel like
forever.

I hope you all had
a good Christmas
filled with smiles
and new hopes.

As well, a word. This
is a new year.

Let go of the last
and move to the new.

You're going to be
given new poisons
this year, and holding
on to the last years,
you'll more than surely
die.

Have a happy new year.

Love to you all.

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It's like an
illution in
the desert.

I see you but
you're not really
there.

Like I'm under
a spell I can't
Break.

I try to touch
you and you melt
away.


~Shiki

I haven't drawn
anything for weeks.

I'll try. .

It seems, I am
getting tired
again.

It happenes at
winter time.

The white snow
makes me sleepy.

It would seem that
I've been wanting
to be alone this
winter.

People decive quite
a bit, even the ones
you wouldn't expect.

At the moment, I'm
content in my own
company, thinking
of what to do next.

Spring will be here
soo, and everything
will be fine.

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Those memories come
like a bitter bullet,
into my heart, pushing
my soul. I think it's
better if we let go.

Yet I hold on, to
all the little things.

And I keep strong
With my prideful
being.

Don't let that heart
tear you apart,
it's only the first
step to pain.

Since the winter
came, it brought
your memories.

So well I've done,
forgeting all that
you said.

Then the first snow
falls and they're
back again.

A child is what I
may be, but look
at you you're just
like me, and I, am
you.

How far will you go
to run from past, better
look at your feet,
'cause things are
caving in fast.

I see your face all of
the time, in the winter
skies, I can't get your
eyes, out of my mind.

Don't hold me now,
not even in your mind,
things are different and
I've found my own way.

Just come back to say
what I've imagined
before.

"I'm finished with you,
Don't talk anymore"


~Shiki

I am almost done
with bookmarks.

Thank God.

I've had enough of
the restrictions.

I want to draw something
else.

Now what I want to draw
is going to be called
"I miss you"

. . .

Maybe.

Because I am missing
someone. Kind of. .

In a way.

I made a promise, and
being an idiot, I feel
obligated to keep it.

Even though the person
left. .

Idiot.

. . .

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The first snow fall
kills us all.

The sunflower patch
in which I live is
nothing more than
dead weeds now.

Though I stand tall
and wait for the
Spring, and the
budding of the plants.

I wait for the smiles
to return and demolish
the tears I see.

I wish to remember all
the things that you gave
to me.

Though all I see is a
white future along
the rode I lead,

filled with coldness,
sadness, and loss.

How could one sunflower
possibly go on?

Though I stand tall
and put my pettles
to the sun,

letting my smile shine
my way on.

Though I find it hard
not to wilt at times,

letting the sadness
destroy me inside.

Though my end won't
come yet, I won't
let it.

Keep moving to the top.

Maybe we'll see him,

The red flower so

Soft. .


~Shiki

Well, I am having trouble
thinking of what song to
draw to.

So I will finish art I
promised some guys at
school I'd make them.

So My insperations
awaits the day you
come back and ignight
it with that mach I
gave you.

I have so much hope
still. .

The cold winter isn't
affecting me like it
did last year, and I
can somehow find a
fire.

I have a special thanks
to all that have supported
me.

I will continue to do
what I love.

I will aslo continue to
hope that I will get better.

When you put something on
paper, someone learns something
about you.

You also learn something
about yourself.

Question for this journal,

When you see someones art,
of any form, what do you
see?
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The only thing
I wish is that
you could be
by me.

We could talk
about all our
memories.

My love, my dear,
The past isn't
here, just you
and me.

So hold me
closer because
these winter
nights scare
me so.

Take my hands,

Promise not to
let me go?


~Shiki

I have just recently
finished ordering
about seven or so
books from my
local library.

Some I will learn
from, others are
simply for my
enjoyment.

I ordered about
three drawing books,
three fantasy books,
and then a life book
of some sort.

It will be interesting.

I hope you all are doing
well.

I'll be seeing you.

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Well I'm doing
fine without you.

Simply going along
with no clue.

Yet I find myself
looking into your
eyes each passing
day, but I know
you've gone away.

So I'll find so
many new way, filled
with all the things
I'm finding,

I hope you'll see
how I do, and maybe
you'll do well too.